so lately i've been smiling. a genuine smile. i can't even think back to the last time that i've felt like this.
i've decided that i'm going to live life for myself, from the wise words of my best friend "stop worrying about other people and live life for yourself." i've always wanted to please others, not disappoint them, make them mad, or upset. i avoid drama at all costs. but at this point in time, screw it.i CAN'T make everyone happy. i can't do it anymore. that is such a hard balance, and whether i mean to or not, someone's toes are going to get stepped on. sorry in advance. i'm going to do what makes ME happy, ME! it feels so good to be happy, to smile. i'm not going to let anyone get in my way anymore. time to move past your immature high school attitude, that clearly you haven't gotten rid of yet, and make life worth living for me.
so at this point, i want to say thank you to that person that puts a smile on my face day after day. that helps me get through my anxiety struggles. that is there for me ALWAYS. whether it be a venting session in the middle of the afternoon or the middle of the night. i'm trying to look past my "too good to be true" perspective and enjoy this while i can. and hope that it doesn't go anywhere :)
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