"Shout it Out"

I can't even describe how unbelievably excited I am to see HANSON tomorrow night in Massachusetts with Jacqui, one of my really good friends from school.

Not only do I love Hanson, but I loooooove their music. No matter what kind of day I may be having, their music has a way to lift me up. It got me through a breakup as well as some of my not-so-happy days.

I know there are "haters" out there that are like "they still exist? they are just a little boy band"... no no no people. These boys are artists. They are so mature and continue to put out music that can be listened to by any age group.

Such beautiful boys. Such amazing talent. 

I will be 7 rows away from them tomorrow night, and I can't even tell you how crazy that makes me feel inside. I'm so so so excited! :)

The few pictures are from their show that I went to back in October. Enjoy and I will let you know how my second Hanson concert experience goes :)

Alivia... here you go :)

The wonderful Alivia (aka my Mumma) posted a lovely blog and at the end had this list of things that she wanted her followers to fill out for themselves... so... I did :)

1. What's your favorite Dr. Seuss book?

maybe green eggs and ham?!

2. If you could live in any home on a television series, what would it be?

i liked kristin cavalari's house on the hills. it was cozy!

3. What's the longest you've gone without sleep?

24-48 hours.

4. What's your favorite Barry Manilow song?

don't listen to him.

5. Who's your favorite Muppet?

kermit!?

6. What's the habit you're proudest of breaking?

my obsessive eating habits.

7. What's your favorite Web site?

alivia's blog.

8. What's your favorite school supply?

i like highlighters. because i like to write in them.

9. Who's your favorite TV attorney?

don't watch it, but let's go with judy!

10. What was your most recent trip of more than 50 miles?

coming home from school in massachusetts.

11. Where were you on September 11, 2001?

the computer lab at the junior high.

12. What's your favorite tree?

the ones that they have planted at school that bloom pretty pink flowers before the leaves come in! :)

13. What's the most interesting biography you've read?

probably dancing on my grave- gelsey kirkland.

14. What do you order when you eat Chinese food?

i love egg rolls! and lo mein.

15. What's the best costume you've ever worn?

i was a pretty awesome baby bop back in the day ;)

16. What's your least favorite word?

there are a few.

17. If you had to be named after one of the 50 states, which would it be?

Carolina maybe... if i was allowed to cut off the "north" or "south" part.

18. Who's your favorite Care Bear?

i didn't really ever watch care bears.

19. Describe something that's happened to you for which you have no explanation.

getting an A in my micro economics class a couple semesters ago.

20. If you could travel anywhere in Africa, where would it be?

EGYPT! i want to see the pyramids!or Morocco.

21. What did you have for lunch yesterday?

a BLT. delicious.

22. Where do you go for advice?

jacqui. my sister. amanda.

23. Which do you use more often, the dictionary or the thesaurus?

dictionary.

24. Have you ever been snorkeling? Scuba diving?

no!

25. What's the sickest you've ever been?

from what i can recall, having the flu/being super dehydrated back in february. worst i've ever felt. ever.

26. What's your favorite form of exercise?

dance. dance. dance. duh!

27. What's your favorite Cyndi Lauper song?

girls just wanna have fun!

28. What did you do for your 13th birthday?

if i can remember right... i think dayna, liz, and danielle came over. and we gave eachother makeovers, took lots of pictures, and danced around in the basement.

29. Are you afraid of heights?

not really.

30. Have you ever taken dance lessons?

hmmm... never. i mean. i'm not a dance major or anything.

31. What's your favorite newspaper?

morning sentinel.

32. What's your favorite Broadway musical?

do i really have to choose one?

33. What's the most memorable class you've ever taken?

pedagogy with good ol jill silverman and joanie palladino!<3

34. What's your favorite commercial?

why is it that when i go to think of one my mind goes blank!?

35. If you could go to Disney World with any celebrity alive today, who would it be?

robert pattinson. we'd ride some rides and laugh at his silly jokes all day!

36. Do you prefer baths or showers?

showers.

37. Does your chewing gum lose its flavor on the bedpost overnight?

i would prefer not to leave my chewing gum on the bedpost over night.

38. What's your favorite breakfast food?

HOMEFRIES!

39. Who's your favorite game show host?

i liked Regis when he did Millionaire.

40. If you could have a super power, what would it be?

teleporting! and mind reading too, please.

41. Do you like guacamole?

yes!

42. Have you ever been in a food fight?

not really.

43. Name five songs to which you know all the lyrics. (Better yet, sing them.)

really?... how about every hanson song. or every nsync song.

44. What's your favorite infomercial?

shamWOW! haha.

45. What's the longest you've ever waited in line?

3 hours for splash mountain at disney.

46. What's on the cover of your address book or day planner?

don't have one currently in use!

47. Have you ever taken a picture in one of those little booths?

oh yes!

The Hills...

This is going to sound like an absolutely silly post at first, but I promise it all ties together in the end!!

Lately I have been catching up on episodes of MTV's The Hills since the series finale is on Tuesday. Now I know many of you believe that that is such a scripted and crazy reality show, but I've picked up more thoughts from it than that. This show has actually made me think (yes by watching endless gossip, relationships fail, people party the hell out of life, people making mistakes).

It made me realize how much time can change things and people. All of the the members of this cast have been through so many ups and downs together, and this finale pulls everything together. At this point now, they are all saying goodbye, moving on in their lives, moving to bigger and better things whether it be new people or moving across the country... After watching this show it makes me feel extremely connected to the members of the show (as stupid as that sounds) but also makes me evaluate things going on in my life.

I was up late the other night watching a marathon of the show and I wanted to blog SO badly but I forced myself to sleep instead, so things that I originally wanted to say may not float to the top of my mind right now and I'll probably be mad at myself for posting this with some links missing...

First of all, the show made me realize how quickly MY life is changing. I will be done college in December, though that seems fairly far away now, it will come way quicker than I will ever be ready for... This part of my life ending means that I will finally have to grow up. When I watch the Hills I envy how grown up these females are and how much they are able to handle being on their own in a big city. It may just be due to where they came from, but honestly, I couldn't imagine myself in such a stable lifestyle that they are in. I want to be like them (minus the gossip and crazy reality show lives)... I want to be all grown up, in an apartment on my own, and to be successfully living the life I have always wanted with a dream career.


Also, it makes me sad to see the cast mates move on. Like I was recently watching the episode where Whitney gets a job offer and moves from LA to NYC, leaving her good friend Lauren (or also known as LC) behind. This made me think of the fact that soon, instead of my friends going off to college, we will be finishing college and moving on with life, to new places to find new opportunities. I experienced some of this prematurely when my best friend throughout my childhood years moved away to Minnesota the summer before our 8th grade year, it was heartbreaking. Now one of my best friends may be potentially getting married and if all goes well, will be moving to Japan in just a couple of years with her Navy man. It makes me sad, although I have only known her since my freshman year of high school, we have been through SOOO many ups and downs over the years and that's only brought us closer. Although I am super duper happy for her, I don't want to go through the pain of losing another friend (even though I'm not really losing her, the distance being as far as Japan will severely interfere with our friendship). I don't like thinking about things like this. I begin to worry...

Will I make new amazing friends as I grow and mature and move onto new things with my life? When will I meet the boy that will change my life? WHERE will I meet the boy that will change my life? Do I need to move out of the state and away from my family in order to make things happen? I don't know, all I know is, I have until December to try to organize and figure my life out... This makes me tremble. and Scared... and Nervous.

So... Don't say that you can't learn things from silly reality shows on MTV. I have thought a lot about life upon watching these night long marathons and I think that we could all learn a little about ourselves by indulging into addicting shows such as these.

You never know, until you try...

last night, while watching the fireworks display, my mind got to thinking. hmm... he was supposed to be here with me watching these. this was going to be the best 4th of july because i had someone special to watch the fireworks with and be able to say that i have been kissed under the fireworks. but. when i stopped watching and looked around me i realized, this is reality. he isn't here. it hurts to think about that, but i also have to look on the entire thing as a growing experience. it was good for me to experience what he had to give and to learn from things that have happened. sure he is a great kid, but i think he has changed. and not for the better. his friend claims there is no way we can be just friends, yet, we can have normal conversations and act civil. i just don't think it's fair to say that a friendship could never come of this because in reality, we were amazing friends, and someone i grew super close to, i think that is silly to throw away. but he also claims that i deserve better. sure, i guess. but that still has nothing to do with whether we can still be friends.

so... upon looking at the people around me at the fireworks i was thinking how things happen for a reason. among the people that surrounded me, there was a guy who i have a lot of history with (get your minds out of the gutter, it's not like that). as we were sitting there i was thinking maybe for once, things should work out between us, that the timing is right. he always wanted a chance with me, but the timing was never right, or he could never quite prove himself to me. i gave him a ride back to my house where his car was parked after the fireworks, and due to the heavy traffic, we had the chance to talk. he has proven to me that he is more caring and considerate now and that he has matured. i think he has finally done some growing up, and he realized that. we had a good conversation consisting of my most recent relationship, our past, and things in our lives. he opened up. and i think he wants to really prove himself now. i know it's soon, but things happen for a reason right? maybe i can give him one more chance and see where the road takes me. if not, it's just another little mistake to learn from. you never know until you try.

so this post just goes to show how people can change, whichever direction it may be. and also, you have to be willing to take chances. even if certain ones makes your heart throb a little, it hurt at first, but maybe, just maybe this is what it needs to mend itself and become whole again.

i.miss.you.

i miss having to reach up on my toes to kiss you. i miss your random "nice bum" comments as i leave the room. i miss your good morning texts. i miss being able to call you in the middle of the night when i'm having trouble sleeping. i miss how your kisses always gave me butterflies. i miss how much i always looked forward to seeing you after weeks at a time. i miss the way you would roll over in the middle of the night to kiss my forehead. i miss the way you would look at me. i miss the way you would get upset when other guys would check me out.i miss how you would say stupid things, but i didn't care because it made me laugh. i miss the beautiful flowers you would get me. i miss the warmth of your arms around me. i miss being able to tell you anything. i miss the way you were always there for me. i miss seeing your smile in person. i miss hearing your voice. i miss everything we were.

Summer?

Okay, for one, I am so so so so so so sorry for not having a blog in almost a month. I've been so caught up with things and haven't even really had a chance to write. I also haven't even been sure what to write about!



So, I have been trying to enjoy my Summer, but I can't even call it Summer yet because I have been so consumed in work, teaching dance, and taking academic classes to meet my goal of being done college in December. I don't mind working and teaching dance, but goodness do I HATE having summer courses. It's good to keep my brain going and constantly thinking about non-summer things, but it also stresses me the heck out.

Currently I'm in the process of writing a 10 page research paper and a 4 page student activity paper due on Thursday. I know, I'm the worst procrastinator, and it probably doesn't help that I'm writing this blog instead of writing a paper. But at this point I really just need a break! Not to mention, I'm trying not to stress TOO much about these classes because I only need a C for my credits to transfer back to my school, and my grade will not affect my GPA at school. So fingers crossed, right?!



I hope you all have been enjoying your summers and soaking up some rays for me! In a couple of weeks I will be FREE for the summer, so hopefully some more insightful and upbeat blogs will be to follow. :) <3

Before the Worst

So I have a feeling that the group The Script likes to creep on my life, their lyrics fit all too perfectly lately:



It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain
So explain to me, how it came to this
Take it back to the night we kissed
It was Dublin city on a Friday night
You were vodkas and coke, I was Guinness all night

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

There was a time, that we'd stay up all night
Best friends talking till the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to loose, but so much to gain
Are hearing me? Cause I don't wanna miss,
Set you a drift on memory bliss
It was Grafton Street on a rainy night
I was down on one knee and you where mine for life

We we're thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

If the clouds don't clear
Then well rise above it, well rise above it
Heavens gate is so near
Come walk with me through
Just like we use to, just like we use to

Lets take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong