"Shout it Out"

I can't even describe how unbelievably excited I am to see HANSON tomorrow night in Massachusetts with Jacqui, one of my really good friends from school.

Not only do I love Hanson, but I loooooove their music. No matter what kind of day I may be having, their music has a way to lift me up. It got me through a breakup as well as some of my not-so-happy days.

I know there are "haters" out there that are like "they still exist? they are just a little boy band"... no no no people. These boys are artists. They are so mature and continue to put out music that can be listened to by any age group.

Such beautiful boys. Such amazing talent. 

I will be 7 rows away from them tomorrow night, and I can't even tell you how crazy that makes me feel inside. I'm so so so excited! :)

The few pictures are from their show that I went to back in October. Enjoy and I will let you know how my second Hanson concert experience goes :)

Alivia... here you go :)

The wonderful Alivia (aka my Mumma) posted a lovely blog and at the end had this list of things that she wanted her followers to fill out for themselves... so... I did :)

1. What's your favorite Dr. Seuss book?

maybe green eggs and ham?!

2. If you could live in any home on a television series, what would it be?

i liked kristin cavalari's house on the hills. it was cozy!

3. What's the longest you've gone without sleep?

24-48 hours.

4. What's your favorite Barry Manilow song?

don't listen to him.

5. Who's your favorite Muppet?

kermit!?

6. What's the habit you're proudest of breaking?

my obsessive eating habits.

7. What's your favorite Web site?

alivia's blog.

8. What's your favorite school supply?

i like highlighters. because i like to write in them.

9. Who's your favorite TV attorney?

don't watch it, but let's go with judy!

10. What was your most recent trip of more than 50 miles?

coming home from school in massachusetts.

11. Where were you on September 11, 2001?

the computer lab at the junior high.

12. What's your favorite tree?

the ones that they have planted at school that bloom pretty pink flowers before the leaves come in! :)

13. What's the most interesting biography you've read?

probably dancing on my grave- gelsey kirkland.

14. What do you order when you eat Chinese food?

i love egg rolls! and lo mein.

15. What's the best costume you've ever worn?

i was a pretty awesome baby bop back in the day ;)

16. What's your least favorite word?

there are a few.

17. If you had to be named after one of the 50 states, which would it be?

Carolina maybe... if i was allowed to cut off the "north" or "south" part.

18. Who's your favorite Care Bear?

i didn't really ever watch care bears.

19. Describe something that's happened to you for which you have no explanation.

getting an A in my micro economics class a couple semesters ago.

20. If you could travel anywhere in Africa, where would it be?

EGYPT! i want to see the pyramids!or Morocco.

21. What did you have for lunch yesterday?

a BLT. delicious.

22. Where do you go for advice?

jacqui. my sister. amanda.

23. Which do you use more often, the dictionary or the thesaurus?

dictionary.

24. Have you ever been snorkeling? Scuba diving?

no!

25. What's the sickest you've ever been?

from what i can recall, having the flu/being super dehydrated back in february. worst i've ever felt. ever.

26. What's your favorite form of exercise?

dance. dance. dance. duh!

27. What's your favorite Cyndi Lauper song?

girls just wanna have fun!

28. What did you do for your 13th birthday?

if i can remember right... i think dayna, liz, and danielle came over. and we gave eachother makeovers, took lots of pictures, and danced around in the basement.

29. Are you afraid of heights?

not really.

30. Have you ever taken dance lessons?

hmmm... never. i mean. i'm not a dance major or anything.

31. What's your favorite newspaper?

morning sentinel.

32. What's your favorite Broadway musical?

do i really have to choose one?

33. What's the most memorable class you've ever taken?

pedagogy with good ol jill silverman and joanie palladino!<3

34. What's your favorite commercial?

why is it that when i go to think of one my mind goes blank!?

35. If you could go to Disney World with any celebrity alive today, who would it be?

robert pattinson. we'd ride some rides and laugh at his silly jokes all day!

36. Do you prefer baths or showers?

showers.

37. Does your chewing gum lose its flavor on the bedpost overnight?

i would prefer not to leave my chewing gum on the bedpost over night.

38. What's your favorite breakfast food?

HOMEFRIES!

39. Who's your favorite game show host?

i liked Regis when he did Millionaire.

40. If you could have a super power, what would it be?

teleporting! and mind reading too, please.

41. Do you like guacamole?

yes!

42. Have you ever been in a food fight?

not really.

43. Name five songs to which you know all the lyrics. (Better yet, sing them.)

really?... how about every hanson song. or every nsync song.

44. What's your favorite infomercial?

shamWOW! haha.

45. What's the longest you've ever waited in line?

3 hours for splash mountain at disney.

46. What's on the cover of your address book or day planner?

don't have one currently in use!

47. Have you ever taken a picture in one of those little booths?

oh yes!

The Hills...

This is going to sound like an absolutely silly post at first, but I promise it all ties together in the end!!

Lately I have been catching up on episodes of MTV's The Hills since the series finale is on Tuesday. Now I know many of you believe that that is such a scripted and crazy reality show, but I've picked up more thoughts from it than that. This show has actually made me think (yes by watching endless gossip, relationships fail, people party the hell out of life, people making mistakes).

It made me realize how much time can change things and people. All of the the members of this cast have been through so many ups and downs together, and this finale pulls everything together. At this point now, they are all saying goodbye, moving on in their lives, moving to bigger and better things whether it be new people or moving across the country... After watching this show it makes me feel extremely connected to the members of the show (as stupid as that sounds) but also makes me evaluate things going on in my life.

I was up late the other night watching a marathon of the show and I wanted to blog SO badly but I forced myself to sleep instead, so things that I originally wanted to say may not float to the top of my mind right now and I'll probably be mad at myself for posting this with some links missing...

First of all, the show made me realize how quickly MY life is changing. I will be done college in December, though that seems fairly far away now, it will come way quicker than I will ever be ready for... This part of my life ending means that I will finally have to grow up. When I watch the Hills I envy how grown up these females are and how much they are able to handle being on their own in a big city. It may just be due to where they came from, but honestly, I couldn't imagine myself in such a stable lifestyle that they are in. I want to be like them (minus the gossip and crazy reality show lives)... I want to be all grown up, in an apartment on my own, and to be successfully living the life I have always wanted with a dream career.


Also, it makes me sad to see the cast mates move on. Like I was recently watching the episode where Whitney gets a job offer and moves from LA to NYC, leaving her good friend Lauren (or also known as LC) behind. This made me think of the fact that soon, instead of my friends going off to college, we will be finishing college and moving on with life, to new places to find new opportunities. I experienced some of this prematurely when my best friend throughout my childhood years moved away to Minnesota the summer before our 8th grade year, it was heartbreaking. Now one of my best friends may be potentially getting married and if all goes well, will be moving to Japan in just a couple of years with her Navy man. It makes me sad, although I have only known her since my freshman year of high school, we have been through SOOO many ups and downs over the years and that's only brought us closer. Although I am super duper happy for her, I don't want to go through the pain of losing another friend (even though I'm not really losing her, the distance being as far as Japan will severely interfere with our friendship). I don't like thinking about things like this. I begin to worry...

Will I make new amazing friends as I grow and mature and move onto new things with my life? When will I meet the boy that will change my life? WHERE will I meet the boy that will change my life? Do I need to move out of the state and away from my family in order to make things happen? I don't know, all I know is, I have until December to try to organize and figure my life out... This makes me tremble. and Scared... and Nervous.

So... Don't say that you can't learn things from silly reality shows on MTV. I have thought a lot about life upon watching these night long marathons and I think that we could all learn a little about ourselves by indulging into addicting shows such as these.

You never know, until you try...

last night, while watching the fireworks display, my mind got to thinking. hmm... he was supposed to be here with me watching these. this was going to be the best 4th of july because i had someone special to watch the fireworks with and be able to say that i have been kissed under the fireworks. but. when i stopped watching and looked around me i realized, this is reality. he isn't here. it hurts to think about that, but i also have to look on the entire thing as a growing experience. it was good for me to experience what he had to give and to learn from things that have happened. sure he is a great kid, but i think he has changed. and not for the better. his friend claims there is no way we can be just friends, yet, we can have normal conversations and act civil. i just don't think it's fair to say that a friendship could never come of this because in reality, we were amazing friends, and someone i grew super close to, i think that is silly to throw away. but he also claims that i deserve better. sure, i guess. but that still has nothing to do with whether we can still be friends.

so... upon looking at the people around me at the fireworks i was thinking how things happen for a reason. among the people that surrounded me, there was a guy who i have a lot of history with (get your minds out of the gutter, it's not like that). as we were sitting there i was thinking maybe for once, things should work out between us, that the timing is right. he always wanted a chance with me, but the timing was never right, or he could never quite prove himself to me. i gave him a ride back to my house where his car was parked after the fireworks, and due to the heavy traffic, we had the chance to talk. he has proven to me that he is more caring and considerate now and that he has matured. i think he has finally done some growing up, and he realized that. we had a good conversation consisting of my most recent relationship, our past, and things in our lives. he opened up. and i think he wants to really prove himself now. i know it's soon, but things happen for a reason right? maybe i can give him one more chance and see where the road takes me. if not, it's just another little mistake to learn from. you never know until you try.

so this post just goes to show how people can change, whichever direction it may be. and also, you have to be willing to take chances. even if certain ones makes your heart throb a little, it hurt at first, but maybe, just maybe this is what it needs to mend itself and become whole again.

i.miss.you.

i miss having to reach up on my toes to kiss you. i miss your random "nice bum" comments as i leave the room. i miss your good morning texts. i miss being able to call you in the middle of the night when i'm having trouble sleeping. i miss how your kisses always gave me butterflies. i miss how much i always looked forward to seeing you after weeks at a time. i miss the way you would roll over in the middle of the night to kiss my forehead. i miss the way you would look at me. i miss the way you would get upset when other guys would check me out.i miss how you would say stupid things, but i didn't care because it made me laugh. i miss the beautiful flowers you would get me. i miss the warmth of your arms around me. i miss being able to tell you anything. i miss the way you were always there for me. i miss seeing your smile in person. i miss hearing your voice. i miss everything we were.

Summer?

Okay, for one, I am so so so so so so sorry for not having a blog in almost a month. I've been so caught up with things and haven't even really had a chance to write. I also haven't even been sure what to write about!



So, I have been trying to enjoy my Summer, but I can't even call it Summer yet because I have been so consumed in work, teaching dance, and taking academic classes to meet my goal of being done college in December. I don't mind working and teaching dance, but goodness do I HATE having summer courses. It's good to keep my brain going and constantly thinking about non-summer things, but it also stresses me the heck out.

Currently I'm in the process of writing a 10 page research paper and a 4 page student activity paper due on Thursday. I know, I'm the worst procrastinator, and it probably doesn't help that I'm writing this blog instead of writing a paper. But at this point I really just need a break! Not to mention, I'm trying not to stress TOO much about these classes because I only need a C for my credits to transfer back to my school, and my grade will not affect my GPA at school. So fingers crossed, right?!



I hope you all have been enjoying your summers and soaking up some rays for me! In a couple of weeks I will be FREE for the summer, so hopefully some more insightful and upbeat blogs will be to follow. :) <3

Before the Worst

So I have a feeling that the group The Script likes to creep on my life, their lyrics fit all too perfectly lately:



It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain
So explain to me, how it came to this
Take it back to the night we kissed
It was Dublin city on a Friday night
You were vodkas and coke, I was Guinness all night

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

There was a time, that we'd stay up all night
Best friends talking till the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to loose, but so much to gain
Are hearing me? Cause I don't wanna miss,
Set you a drift on memory bliss
It was Grafton Street on a rainy night
I was down on one knee and you where mine for life

We we're thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

If the clouds don't clear
Then well rise above it, well rise above it
Heavens gate is so near
Come walk with me through
Just like we use to, just like we use to

Lets take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Falling to Pieces...

So rather than write a sappy post about my recent, unexpected breakup, I'll just post pictures and such that describe how I'm feeling at the moment...

Fitting song lyrics for the situation (Falling to Pieces- The Script):

While I'm wide awake he's no trouble sleeping
Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you, and
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces yeah
I'm falling to pieces

They say that things happen for a reason
But no wise word's gonna stop the bleeding

i miss this:

Dance Company 2010

Okay, so as my last post described, I was crazy busy with the end of the semester stuff!

My last two weeks consisted of nothing but school work and dance company! Although company may have consumed my life, it's such an amazing experience. The first full week consisted of technical dress rehearsals Monday and Tuesday, Full dress rehearsal on Wednesday, then performances Thursday, Friday, Saturday (April 22, 23, 24). The following week consisted of pictures on Monday, TUESDAY OFF!! Run through on Wednesday, performances Thursday Friday, Saturday (April 29, 30 and May 1). After the last show we had a reception which caused MANY tears. It was hard presenting the seniors with our "Hangover" opening speech and individual speeches to each senior about how special they have been in our lives. It's hard to believe that that is going to be me next year. Unfortunately, due to getting done school in December, I won't have the chance to endure one more year of dance company. I am extremely grateful to have been involved in it these past couple of years though!Please enjoy these pictures from picture night as well as a full company picture!

Tap Company: "Keeping 'da Beat"


Ballet Company: "Etude No.2"



Modern Company: "Ode to CoCo"


Hip Hop Company: "Ego Trippin"


Jazz Company: "Le Tango De Roxanne"


Dance Company 2010<3




**I promise the next post will be more about recent thoughts!**

M.I.A

So my life has been absolutely CRAZY BUSY lately, so I apologize for not writing a post in a VERY long time... I still have 2 more company performances and a recital to perform in this weekend so I won't be able to write until next week, but be prepared for a nice long blog :) Hope everyone is doing well

Another picture post...

i've become slightly obsessed with picture websites...



i would LOVE to have a swing like this :)



i'm going to steal this puppy<3



i'll take one of these in my backyard please.



for some reason, i really like this picture. i think it's the colors.



i could use some of this, please. if only it were real.



baby bunnyyyyy<3

a handful of random...

today instead of writing a paper, i spent time looking at a lovely little picture website, so here are some things that i found that i really liked, basically statements that i found very true... and figured you may like them too :)













oh, and on a lighter note, enjoy some sparkly cupcakes :)

Cus You Had a Bad Day...

even though it is 2:04 am, i still consider this the same day, and boy has it been a bad one. just a fair warning to you readers, this one is going to be a vent sesh, so if you don't want to read it, i understand. i just need to get a few things off my chest so i can hopefully get some sleep tonight...


i woke up this morning in hopes that it would be a good day and a good start to the weekend, but i think i got a little ahead of myself. went and had lunch with bianca who i haven't had a lunch date with in forever, but i should have seen the bad day coming when my francisco sandwich from the deli was not up to par. then i had to spend a couple of hours entering data into a computer as compensation work for missing stuff for my res life job on sunday. that wasn't too horrible, minus the silly anxiety that decided to creep up on me during such a low key task. on a positive note, after that i came back to my room and did an intense cleaning, having a clean room is always a good feeling.

i then climbed onto my bed to watch the first half of new moon (yes, i received it in the mail on tuesday but hadn't had the chance to watch it on DVD yet, shocking i know). i really wanted to cook dinner and have a decent meal for once, but that fell through, and i don't have a kitchen in my building, so my only choice was to go to the cafeteria and have dinner, or as steve and i like to call it "disappointment." to him and i, we don't call it dinner anymore... when this topic comes up it usually sounds like "what time are you going to disappointment?" or "want to go enjoy some disappointment tonight?" sad but true. and that it was, disappointing. not one appetizing thing in the entire cafeteria, so my fat ass indulged on some fries and decided that i was just gonna go buy some dinner later with the money that i don't have.

so, after leaving the caf an hour and a half after i got there, i decided i should probably finish new moon since it had been sitting on pause in my room since i left for the caf. i was hoping to find some plans for the night, just to get out of my room, do something, but that didn't happen. i should look positively at the free time i get, but unfortunately too much free time makes me go bonkers. if i have to sit in my room for more than 2 hours with nothing to do, i tend to lose it. after finally ordering a sandwich from d'angelos, i went and picked it up, only to realize that it was probably half the size i was expecting and didn't taste great at all. looks like disappointment all around tonight. i talked to my mom on the phone tonight too... love my mom. but what we conversed about did not aid in my mood. i was telling her how i was looking up plane tickets because i really want to go to minnesota this summer considering i haven't been in a few years. she then informed me that i have to pay for the 2 summer classes i will be taking this summer, so a trip isn't gonna happen unless i feel like staying at my school for the full year next year, screw that. sooo looks like i'm stuck at home all summer. no fun trips. after that i popped in another movie "13 going on 30" in hopes of lifting my mood, but i had a hard time focusing.

boyfriend had some free time, so we decided to skype. which was alright. he put me in a good mood for a bit, or just kept me from thinking about my awful day. our one month is tomorrow, well now today, but you get what i mean. and i was excited that we were going to be able to hang out for it. wrong. i was originally going to go to NYC for the day on a school trip, that i purposely made no plans for this weekend so that i could go. but then i found out i have a res life area program at night that i wouldn't be back in time for, and considering i had missed stuff previously for a family obligation, i had to pick my battles wisely. i decided missing NYC wouldn't be too bad, because that would just mean more time that i could spend with my boyfriend. wrong again. i sort of really wished we had made plans for tonight instead, but i'm an idiot and clearly wasn't thinking. he isn't able to hang out for legitimate reasons, they are having his mom's birthday celebration, which is TOTALLY understandable, i just need to stop being selfish. i can't help it sometimes. especially when i could have had other things to do. so i'm thinking tomorrow i think i'll just sleep forever and ever. maybe shower. maybe work on my paper (probably not), assist with the program, and maybe go to bed early, we will see.

to top off my night, i went to go brush my teeth and discovered a bunch of my flyers had been ripped off the wall and left on the floors. lovely. i wouldn't have been so mad about this if i hadn't been having a bad day already and if they hadn't ripped some of the paint off the walls. my girls are going to get charged for more stuff that they didn't do. not fair. i really despise the boys that live in this building. they have absolutely no respect for anything. my question is why the hell are they even here, because realistically, 96% of them don't give a crap about their education.

anyways. i think i'll stop ranting now, and i apologize to you poor souls who actually took the time to read this. if i could give you the minutes back on your life that you wasted reading this, i gladly would. but i just needed to get all of that off my chest in hopes that maybe i'll be able to sleep easily tonight.

so here are the lyrics to daniel powter's bad day, because it clearly ties in with this post. enjoy.

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
You tell me your blue skies fade to grey
You tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well, you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

This Made Me Smile

i found the cure for a bad mood...

...a sunny day...



...a swingset...



...hanson playing on your ipod...


"Keep your face to the sunshine and you will never see the shadow."-- HK

the pieces are falling together...

so lately things have been falling into place, for the first time in a while.

as much as school stresses me out, i'm getting things done.
a paper that i freaked out about, i got an A+ on. who saw that coming?! i definitely didn't.

i've been told, in one way or another, that i'm not doing well in my res. life job. oh well. i know that i'm doing the best work that i can with the time that i have. if that's not good enough. get over it :) it's better than what i've seen others doing. and personally, i feel really connected with my residents. how much more do you want? my residents appreciate me and even surprised me with decorating my door after a long night of duty. it was a pleasant surprise.

but to end on a happier note... boyfriend makes me smile. i could be having the worst of days and something sweet that he says can make it all better. i take comfort in his snuggles and kisses. it just stinks that he's so far away. i miss him. but the time that we do get to spend together is just that much more special. it's hard to say goodbye. but i think that that is a good thing. honestly. i didn't see any of this coming. it's weird to be "in a relationship" because i've gotten so used to living the single life, and it being the norm. i'm not at all complaining about this, it just takes some getting used to... you know, having a boyfriend?! (wait me, we're talking about me?! i have a boyfriend?... yes i can definitely get used to that)... i like the way this feels. i wouldn't change this for anything.



so on that. the pieces are finally getting put back together in this puzzle of life.

So I'm Gonna Smile...

so lately i've been smiling. a genuine smile. i can't even think back to the last time that i've felt like this.



i've decided that i'm going to live life for myself, from the wise words of my best friend "stop worrying about other people and live life for yourself." i've always wanted to please others, not disappoint them, make them mad, or upset. i avoid drama at all costs. but at this point in time, screw it.i CAN'T make everyone happy. i can't do it anymore. that is such a hard balance, and whether i mean to or not, someone's toes are going to get stepped on. sorry in advance. i'm going to do what makes ME happy, ME! it feels so good to be happy, to smile. i'm not going to let anyone get in my way anymore. time to move past your immature high school attitude, that clearly you haven't gotten rid of yet, and make life worth living for me.



so at this point, i want to say thank you to that person that puts a smile on my face day after day. that helps me get through my anxiety struggles. that is there for me ALWAYS. whether it be a venting session in the middle of the afternoon or the middle of the night. i'm trying to look past my "too good to be true" perspective and enjoy this while i can. and hope that it doesn't go anywhere :)

happy valentines day

so normally i'm not one to fall into the valentines day hype, but i think i am this year because it's the first time since, ohhhh, elementary school that i've had a valentine :) so i am pretty sure that i will have a permanent smile on my face all day. no special valentine plans for me because we are states away, but that's okay, it's the thought that counts, and i guess i get my valentines day surprise the following weekend, which is okay by me. i surprised my valentine with some fresh, homemade brownies that were over-nighted to his house with a cute card :) it was a successful surprise, and i guess the brownies didn't last long!

for those of you who HATE valentines day, look at it as a day to celebrate the ones you love, like your parents, siblings, extended family, friends, it's not just a day to celebrate a special someone, but to everyone you love as well<3

so put on a smile and enjoy valentines day :)

a random assortment

many things inspired me to write today... so here goes...

first of all... i have been such a couch potato since i have been at home sick so i have been watching a variety of tv shows. today around dinner time i just happened to be watching extreme makeover: home edition, which is an inspiration in itself. i missed the beginning of the show where they give the background story of the family that they are going to help, but luckily they touched upon it again later in the show. turns out these children lost their father to a car accident and *i'm not sure of the time frame* lost their mother to domestic abuse, so now they were being raised by a god's gift of an aunt. obviously my story telling does not do the story justice, but you can only imagine the emotion behind this episode.

so this got me to thinking... i could never imagine what my life would be without my parents. i don't necessarily take them for granted, but i don't think i give enough credit to them either. my family means more than the world to me. i mean sure we have spats and arguments, but honestly, what family doesnt?! i feel like this is such a tiny little paragraph for something that means so much to me, but words can't describe the love you feel towards the people that mean the most to you. on the same subject, but slightly shifting, over spring break this year i REALLY want to get a tattoo, a tattoo of a symbol (haven't quite decided which symbol yet) but a symbol that means family... annnnd in my head there was much more for me to say about this but clearly my brain is shutting down on me at this point... soooo plan on seeing a blog about a tattoo sometime in the near future...


my next topic of discussion is a rant i could go on forever and ever and ever about, so maybe i'll devote an entire post to it very soon. yes, i'm going to do that instead...let's hope for you readers that procrastination doesn't get the best of me. although, fair warning, it's going to be a complaining, whiny post, but everyone needs one of those every once in a while, am i right?! OH the topic... you want to know the topic? hmmm. let's see if i can narrow this down to a single topic... current college/finishing college/ my future? hmm... broad, but it'll do i suppose.


lastly, my biggest "inspiration" to write this post today was the movie i just watched with my mom Julie and Julia. throughout the movie, the character julie is working on a blog about a year long goal i guess you could say that she has given herself to complete julia child's entire cookbook and write about her findings/adventures in doing so. what got to me in this was how helpful and fun it can be to write a blog... to just get things off of your chest, because there is bound to be at least one person out there that will read it and understand where you are coming from, or who may even just read it out of boredom... in her case it helped her grow as a person (which i hope may happen to me as well)


annnd at this point, clearly my brain is a big, fat, hot mess right now because i can't think of exactly what i want to say in any of what i'm talking about (this time i'm going to blame it on me being sick this week), but thats why i warned all you readers about the randomness of this blog. everything sounds so much more organized and better in my head and the second i go to write it, i feel like a kindergartner!


so i apologize for this mumble jumble of a post i am publishing right now, i hope you can understand. and let's hope, for the sake of all of your poor little brains that my next post is more clear and thought out! goodnight all :)

and so it begins...

so i have decided to start a blog. not really sure what possessed me to do so...

it could be that i am inspired by other friends blogs...
or that i need to have a place where i can vent...
or quite possibly a mix of both... i think i will go with that one.

i really can't make any promises about this blog. the only thing i will tell you is that it is guaranteed to be random, because that's just how i am... random.

so in saying so... welcome to my little thought bubble.