Cus You Had a Bad Day...

even though it is 2:04 am, i still consider this the same day, and boy has it been a bad one. just a fair warning to you readers, this one is going to be a vent sesh, so if you don't want to read it, i understand. i just need to get a few things off my chest so i can hopefully get some sleep tonight...


i woke up this morning in hopes that it would be a good day and a good start to the weekend, but i think i got a little ahead of myself. went and had lunch with bianca who i haven't had a lunch date with in forever, but i should have seen the bad day coming when my francisco sandwich from the deli was not up to par. then i had to spend a couple of hours entering data into a computer as compensation work for missing stuff for my res life job on sunday. that wasn't too horrible, minus the silly anxiety that decided to creep up on me during such a low key task. on a positive note, after that i came back to my room and did an intense cleaning, having a clean room is always a good feeling.

i then climbed onto my bed to watch the first half of new moon (yes, i received it in the mail on tuesday but hadn't had the chance to watch it on DVD yet, shocking i know). i really wanted to cook dinner and have a decent meal for once, but that fell through, and i don't have a kitchen in my building, so my only choice was to go to the cafeteria and have dinner, or as steve and i like to call it "disappointment." to him and i, we don't call it dinner anymore... when this topic comes up it usually sounds like "what time are you going to disappointment?" or "want to go enjoy some disappointment tonight?" sad but true. and that it was, disappointing. not one appetizing thing in the entire cafeteria, so my fat ass indulged on some fries and decided that i was just gonna go buy some dinner later with the money that i don't have.

so, after leaving the caf an hour and a half after i got there, i decided i should probably finish new moon since it had been sitting on pause in my room since i left for the caf. i was hoping to find some plans for the night, just to get out of my room, do something, but that didn't happen. i should look positively at the free time i get, but unfortunately too much free time makes me go bonkers. if i have to sit in my room for more than 2 hours with nothing to do, i tend to lose it. after finally ordering a sandwich from d'angelos, i went and picked it up, only to realize that it was probably half the size i was expecting and didn't taste great at all. looks like disappointment all around tonight. i talked to my mom on the phone tonight too... love my mom. but what we conversed about did not aid in my mood. i was telling her how i was looking up plane tickets because i really want to go to minnesota this summer considering i haven't been in a few years. she then informed me that i have to pay for the 2 summer classes i will be taking this summer, so a trip isn't gonna happen unless i feel like staying at my school for the full year next year, screw that. sooo looks like i'm stuck at home all summer. no fun trips. after that i popped in another movie "13 going on 30" in hopes of lifting my mood, but i had a hard time focusing.

boyfriend had some free time, so we decided to skype. which was alright. he put me in a good mood for a bit, or just kept me from thinking about my awful day. our one month is tomorrow, well now today, but you get what i mean. and i was excited that we were going to be able to hang out for it. wrong. i was originally going to go to NYC for the day on a school trip, that i purposely made no plans for this weekend so that i could go. but then i found out i have a res life area program at night that i wouldn't be back in time for, and considering i had missed stuff previously for a family obligation, i had to pick my battles wisely. i decided missing NYC wouldn't be too bad, because that would just mean more time that i could spend with my boyfriend. wrong again. i sort of really wished we had made plans for tonight instead, but i'm an idiot and clearly wasn't thinking. he isn't able to hang out for legitimate reasons, they are having his mom's birthday celebration, which is TOTALLY understandable, i just need to stop being selfish. i can't help it sometimes. especially when i could have had other things to do. so i'm thinking tomorrow i think i'll just sleep forever and ever. maybe shower. maybe work on my paper (probably not), assist with the program, and maybe go to bed early, we will see.

to top off my night, i went to go brush my teeth and discovered a bunch of my flyers had been ripped off the wall and left on the floors. lovely. i wouldn't have been so mad about this if i hadn't been having a bad day already and if they hadn't ripped some of the paint off the walls. my girls are going to get charged for more stuff that they didn't do. not fair. i really despise the boys that live in this building. they have absolutely no respect for anything. my question is why the hell are they even here, because realistically, 96% of them don't give a crap about their education.

anyways. i think i'll stop ranting now, and i apologize to you poor souls who actually took the time to read this. if i could give you the minutes back on your life that you wasted reading this, i gladly would. but i just needed to get all of that off my chest in hopes that maybe i'll be able to sleep easily tonight.

so here are the lyrics to daniel powter's bad day, because it clearly ties in with this post. enjoy.

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
You tell me your blue skies fade to grey
You tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well, you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on