The Hills...

This is going to sound like an absolutely silly post at first, but I promise it all ties together in the end!!

Lately I have been catching up on episodes of MTV's The Hills since the series finale is on Tuesday. Now I know many of you believe that that is such a scripted and crazy reality show, but I've picked up more thoughts from it than that. This show has actually made me think (yes by watching endless gossip, relationships fail, people party the hell out of life, people making mistakes).

It made me realize how much time can change things and people. All of the the members of this cast have been through so many ups and downs together, and this finale pulls everything together. At this point now, they are all saying goodbye, moving on in their lives, moving to bigger and better things whether it be new people or moving across the country... After watching this show it makes me feel extremely connected to the members of the show (as stupid as that sounds) but also makes me evaluate things going on in my life.

I was up late the other night watching a marathon of the show and I wanted to blog SO badly but I forced myself to sleep instead, so things that I originally wanted to say may not float to the top of my mind right now and I'll probably be mad at myself for posting this with some links missing...

First of all, the show made me realize how quickly MY life is changing. I will be done college in December, though that seems fairly far away now, it will come way quicker than I will ever be ready for... This part of my life ending means that I will finally have to grow up. When I watch the Hills I envy how grown up these females are and how much they are able to handle being on their own in a big city. It may just be due to where they came from, but honestly, I couldn't imagine myself in such a stable lifestyle that they are in. I want to be like them (minus the gossip and crazy reality show lives)... I want to be all grown up, in an apartment on my own, and to be successfully living the life I have always wanted with a dream career.


Also, it makes me sad to see the cast mates move on. Like I was recently watching the episode where Whitney gets a job offer and moves from LA to NYC, leaving her good friend Lauren (or also known as LC) behind. This made me think of the fact that soon, instead of my friends going off to college, we will be finishing college and moving on with life, to new places to find new opportunities. I experienced some of this prematurely when my best friend throughout my childhood years moved away to Minnesota the summer before our 8th grade year, it was heartbreaking. Now one of my best friends may be potentially getting married and if all goes well, will be moving to Japan in just a couple of years with her Navy man. It makes me sad, although I have only known her since my freshman year of high school, we have been through SOOO many ups and downs over the years and that's only brought us closer. Although I am super duper happy for her, I don't want to go through the pain of losing another friend (even though I'm not really losing her, the distance being as far as Japan will severely interfere with our friendship). I don't like thinking about things like this. I begin to worry...

Will I make new amazing friends as I grow and mature and move onto new things with my life? When will I meet the boy that will change my life? WHERE will I meet the boy that will change my life? Do I need to move out of the state and away from my family in order to make things happen? I don't know, all I know is, I have until December to try to organize and figure my life out... This makes me tremble. and Scared... and Nervous.

So... Don't say that you can't learn things from silly reality shows on MTV. I have thought a lot about life upon watching these night long marathons and I think that we could all learn a little about ourselves by indulging into addicting shows such as these.